The GaGas were out last night…

*sighs* I love Halloween.

Darkness falls, a whispery wind
Breathing and chanting and longing again
“Listen to this,” it says. “Just hear me out.
“Love is a vessel for your words to sound.”
And sound, oh they do, much to my dismay
Among thoughts of you, for this price I pay
You see, all the pain, all my suffering inside
From this comes true art, from this I can’t hide
And though there is sorrow, a true burning ache
For this I must thank you: for these words today

: )P

I want to sink
Let it suck me under
Never to speak
Never to wonder
The blackest void
To the moon’s content
An even tide
And it’s Heaven sent
The eventide
What brings it back
A wondering mind
Comes wandering back
Through barreling, blundering
Bickering tones
The sickening taste
Of bittersweet notes

Music is my sanctuary. It lifts me up, high as the clouds in the sky, and takes me on a journey — a breathtaking flight — I can never quite describe, only feel. And I do. Sure as the blood that courses through my veins, I do. I feel music like a second heartbeat in my body.

I have a headache.

Tonight is hollow, filled with bright lights that hurt my eyes and blaring rock songs that suffocate my senses. All I want is peace and quiet, and now I realize:

That was him. He was that for me — a little piece of peace and quiet. A little consistency in the chaos. I don’t have that now. He’s gone, this night is empty, and my heart is sad.

The headache’s getting worse.